I can say very easily that my favorite episode is “The Risky Business.” Here are some things I absolutely adore about this episode:
1) Ryan admits that he and Marissa are “taking it slow.”
2) Marissa comes to stay with the Cohens, which is such a fun idea that I think should’ve been explored more in other episodes.
3) That said, Ryan walking in on Marissa changing is priceless. ”Nothing you haven’t seen before…” AND HE STARES OFF THINKING ABOUT IT. I NEED THE FAN FICTION, WHAT HAS RYAN SEEN BEFORE AND WHEN.
4) It won’t let me add pictures to this right now but the early morning ran into each other in the kitchen scene between Ryan/Marissa. True beauty. That look, moving their hands toward each other…
5) Marissa/Summer distracting in the charity yard sale (that people keep part of the profits for and is in a ballroom) is hilarious. Summer Roberts you are amazing.
6) Marissa freaking Cooper can you be more thoughtful trying to help that douche Trey out?
7) Ryan/Marissa scene at the end where he puts the jacket over her shoulders and lingers.
8) In general I just like the episodes from The Blaze of Glory onward while Ryan and Marissa find their way back to each other.
(honorable mention to The Debut though)
Thanks for the question. Oddly enough I was thinking about this yesterday!
I don’t know. I have conflicting feelings. I’m pretty good at smiling when I feel like crap, but that doesn’t really take away the fact that I feel like crap. I also am really good at making myself and other people laugh while sad. I am the pro at making people laugh at funerals. But I think underlying all of that is a sadness that just doesn’t go away. At least if you’re truly depressed, I think you can have a good day or two or three but if you haven’t dealt with that sadness it kind of just sits there until it gets addressed. I used to think of sadness as my companion. It was always there, even when I was happy. But that’s just personal and I have no empirical data to back it up.
That said, I do believe that focusing on happier or more beautiful things makes someone more willing to want to get better or want to live, and that’s kind of what the novel I wrote is about. That the sadness doesn’t necessarily go away when you get a boyfriend or like a class or get absorbed in beauty; instead, it just gives you enough motivation to start looking at the deeper stuff to heal.